abc. im confuse&annoyed with me. what i feel.
everytime i see a glimpse of hope.
it gets punctured to disappointment.

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had a morning test at MFA at 8.45am!
i swear with just 3 hours sleep,
im surprised that i was pretty much awake.
the test went on fine.
8.45am - 1pm.
go figure.

went home.
took a few seconds nap.
well, i tried to sleep.
failed miserably.
met jansen and huda at tamp.
dinner&walk2.
then, back home.

huda, cheer up.

was in a lalala happy mood.
oh, the mighty power of mood swings.
pfft.
okay, i shall be understanding and shut up.
but.
GERAM LA SEY.
ishk.
majok la gini~

note to self: never expect anything from anyone. especially boys.
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@11:46 PM

Hyper. yesha.
im recovering.
basically only eating 1 out of 4 meds.
cause the 3 meds says to eat it 1hr before food.
if i get hungry, i can't wait tad long!
stubborn woman.
hahahaa.
(:

met chron after work.
supposed to blanja him starbucks.
but he being all so humble.
we ended up eating at banquet.
then i left for din's place.
hospital boy is back at home.
no more puffy pipi.
cannot win fasha anymore~
hahahaha :P

ohh.
my handphone batt died on me.
horrible.
and im bad at remembering ppl's no.
aiyoyo~
lucky there's still msn.
hehes.

ok.
im hyper.
thanks to wani.
hahaa.
fad syoik sendiri~
da buang terbiat at the moment.
hahaha..
but sometimes i can be very gullible&bodoh.
so i shall shut up now.
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@12:32 AM

Sick.
ended up going to polyclinic twice this week.
interesting i might say.
thurs - accompanied din.
fri - for my own self.

on thurs.
on the way to work.
got horribly sick after waking up from the mrt ride.
HORRIBLE!
ended up at vivo but didnt make it to sentosa.
HORRIBLE!
i was so hungry.
but scared to eat.
ugh.
slept at night with a growling stomach.
everything i ate ended up coming back out soon after.
hate it sooo much.
i so very much like my food to stay in when it gets in!

had diba accompanied me to polyclinic on fri (:
doc say its virus thingy.
makes me soo weak~
bla~

so this week.
all 3 of my sentosa shifts got cancelled.
there goes my pay~~
noooo~~
this sucks.

today went childcare.
accompanied ry to help clear & close up the place.
then got a call from din.
din got hospitalized cause of his puffy pipi.
hahaha~
came down to cgh.
after all the kecoh2.
at night, left din by his solo self.
while the rest left for home.
got a ride from din's family. (:

oh, i feeling better.
no more vomiting~
yeaa. but still picky about food.
aiyerr. leceh!
headache comes and goes.
boo~
there goes my working mission.
screwed.
lousy.
hahahaha..

note:
you two are so the same.
sooooo annoying.
quit messaging me.
i don't care what you think.
i swear i didn't ask for your opinion.
unless i do, then do share.
if not, shut your trap.
ugh. pissed.

note 2:
cik ai sayang.
asyik2 menghilang saje.
rindu tau~
hahaha!
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@10:21 PM

At work. only the fourth day working.
and i'm falling sick.
horrible.
i even having slight sore eyes.
ugh.

whats with the boys & their bikes these days.
only recently, taha had an accident.
then next was din.
now, yesterday, abid had an accident.
alhamdulillah nothing bad happened to any of them.
amin~
people, please please, ride with care.
(:
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@10:34 AM

headache. ok, maybe walking a lot is not good for my mental state.
horrible.
i'm suffering from a bad headache now.

walked from afdal's void deck to home.
and the thoughts flow on and on and on.
like running tap water.
loads of why(s) though.
questions that could never be answered.

ouch~!

---

met joti earlier (:
i missing her like crazy.
she's like my treasure box.
full of my secrets, deep dark secrets.
i love her to bits.

then met din azfar ahiq and taha.
which i dont know what hit them earlier.
but everything seems funny to them.
and thanks to my slenger-ness - "i walk you k".
best. hmph!
joti left soon after,
in which i did walk with her to the busstop.
then aisya afdal came, soon haikel too.
*bam boom bamm*
kecoohhh.
everyone start to go home.
walked with ahiq then, all the way home.
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@12:26 AM

.. din had motor accident.
while out with the guys.
thou he said he's okay, but motor rabak.
im still a worried wreck.
):

more updates tmr.
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@1:34 AM

Tired. yesterday was back to sentosa.

and just great.
i was greeted with an event/function.
*pfft. why didn't anyone warn me~*
a slightly higher class than before.
had to changed into restaurant's uniform.
never seen before during my work time previously.
wore white long sleeve collared shirt with brown restaurant logo vest.
it's something nice though (:

but it was hella tiring.
i swear my body is aching.
the event people were big shots from brunei, malaysia and singapore.
big shots as in prosecutors/lawyers and judges.
but overall it was okay.
nothing too chaotic.
just plain tired that i didn't even feel hungry at all.
had some share of food at the end of work.

and im sooooo happy to see whye keat again. hehes (:
and rosli is being annoying..

and damn!
yesterday i had a taste of adult fare!
wth.
that's it man, im so walking around pasir ris already.
yesterday went home, walking.
walking from mrt to home at 12.30am!
hahahaha..
one day trip already had $2 burned.
cannot, man. ugh.
so susah!
now, i feel the holy need to get license and some wheels.
horrible horrible.
work again today.

check out my schedule for this coming week.
sat(today) - work sentosa.
sun - off.
mon - work simei.
tues - work simei.
wed - work simei.
thurs - work sentosa.
fri - work sentosa.
sat - work sentosa.
sun - work simei/ (maybe)sentosa.

see, this is why i had a countdown on msn.
im on a working mission.
chey wahhh~
hahaha.
let's see how long i last.

and ntu is soooooo not yet sending that letter! ):
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@12:57 PM

waiting. im waiting.
im waiting for a rejection.
im waiting for a rejection letter.
im waiting for a rejection letter from ntu.
):

congrats to fiqah and everyone else who got their acceptance letter.
(:
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@1:00 AM

ever. ever thought in your mind.
that whats in your life is never enough?
that what you wish for never comes true?
that what you want you could never obtain?

ever thought in your mind.
that what you have is enough?
that what you gain is meaningful?
that what you receive is a gift?

at times.
it's how we view and appreciate our life.
appreciate what we have.
appreciate everything.
good and bad.
cause we are still breathing.
cause we still have a chance to live.
cause we have a choice to choose.
the path in life we choose to walk.
(:
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@5:40 PM

emotions.



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she does the most wicked icons (:
i highly recommend it.

i don't know how to feel.
i don't know what to expect.
within split seconds, my mood could simply swing.
from hyper maniac to bitchy emo.

lousy.

p/s: i hate moments during time of the month, i eat ALOT. horrible horrible.

being quite retarded at the moment.
just painted my nails colorfully.
pearl, black, maroon, bronze & lime green.
only on the nails on my left hand.
hahaha..

Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@11:25 PM

Johore. went to johore with family.

watched fast & furious 4.
dang!
it's a totally freaking wicked movie!
i'll rate it top for its stunts and thrill.
and not forgetting the HAWWWTT baby cars!
*drools*
gee. i dont mind watching this again~

oh!
omma bought me and sis gisele slippers!
yesha!
one down from my wishlist.
(:
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@10:52 PM

News. the good news.
the bad news.
the horrible news.
):
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@12:35 AM

Reason. sometimes things happen for a reason.
sometimes we are to learn from our actions.
sometimes we are to learn from the past.

i will try to stop from letting my heart take control.
i want to stop believing in my feelings and emotions.
feelings and emotions that sway me here and there.
it will always give me hope.
hope that leads to disappointment.
it will always lead me astray.
astray within my own lost world.
it will always misled me away.
away from the truth hidden beneath.

no.
i'm not emo.
just simply what i think at the moment.

at this moment.
i don't want to fall in love.
unless someone can prove to me.
that love is worth loving.
(:

but i'm still content to have my wonderful family and friends.
credits to all for helping me come this far.
woohoo~!

psst!
i'm going to have my fun now.
gimme 2-3 weeks, baby..
later, i'll work my arse out!
yesha!!
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@11:29 PM

EEyorE.
huda came by home with a special surprise.
kinda expected it.
but im just too gleefully happy,
so i'll pretend im surprise, ok?
hahaha..
but, should have seen my face when i saw eeyore!
it's like giving candy to a deprived kid.
hahahahaa!!

now, this little eeyore is MINE.
bwahahaa~
im going to rename is to.....
YORI?
ok, maybe i'll think of a new name later.
but, im so happy.
happy happy happy moooooddd~

i wonder why im so happy?
having eeyore joining my family,
makes me even happy like crazy.
it's insane.
im insane.
hahaha..


was out with ry ida azoo.
guess what we did?
we took neoprints!
maaann, it's like ages since we did it.
mmmm..
such crazy people.

im so broke.
so sad.
but im still happy.
happy but broke.
dead broke.
only $5 in the wallet.
only $10 in bank a/c.
next pay is end of april.
horrible.
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@10:47 PM

(: randomness.

diba said something about a "full-time minah tudung"..
sounds like a job application. hahaha!
would you like to apply as a full-time minah tudung?
hahahaha..
sorry, it just sounds funny.

i got shocked way too many times with him today.
1 minute!
mosque!
O.O!!
now i feel inferior&guilty somehow.
but.. maybe he could change me for the better?
but... am i ready for this?
i dont know.
no matter what.
i still had fun and enjoyed myself.
thats more important somehow.
hahaha..

mmmmm..
jom, wani, let's do reflecting.
main reflecting aje.
hahahahaha!

fasha&huda.
i wish you two all the best.
and pls pls, cheer up.
hope you two will be okay.
(:
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@11:49 PM

Partyyy. let's party tonight!

fasha is molesting my monkay doll!
she can't get her hands of my monkay doll!
she says the nose looks like m&m.
she says the legs look like a hairy sausage.
she says the eyes look like bubble tea pearls!
gee. all she thinks is FOOD.

and she's talking to monkay doll.
like really talking to monkay.
and she says even everyone needs a companion.
even a monkay.
now, who's the weird one?
HAHAHA.
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@3:02 PM