2009 2010.
whats there reminisce of dear 2009?
a lot, i would say.
end 2008 somehow is still super fresh in my mind.
it seems just like a month past. but.. it's already a year.
oh, how time truly flies.

2009.

1. great memories with the gang. din wan ahiq aisyah fasha huda. seemly as we're basically wasting time together as redundant as it could be. somehow, it's all great time. i truly enjoyed it much.

2. movie marathons with din. watching movies endlessly til we ended up with no more movies to watch next in the theatres. always heading up to ehub to catch a show and disturb the working ehub people, especially dear wan. haha.

3. little meet ups with my best friend, joti who turn uber sexy and skinny. i absolutely love her. bla~ ♥

3. starting of the working life with ica. oh, how great it all turned out to be. i have to say i am glad i joined the force. it's all a-okay. i have no regrets. well, i'm proud of my job, of ICA. plus, the meeting of great friends like kak hid, abg faizal, pa-paris, kak rams, kak aini, sara & all. plus, fasha who joined the ica team, a member in the same workfield, cool. (: and being post out to woodlands command which is great, more friends like nirwani whose absolutely adorable. and all the other people around. but even more, dearest muhammad fadhil bin mohamed zin, my colleague turned lover.

4. my greatest gift of the year, muhammad fadhil bin mohamed zin. someone new. someone amazing whom truly loves me. and i feel blessed and greatful for someone like him. i have to say, he truly dots on me and really pampers me like a little baby princess. trust me, im a spoilt girlfriend. but, nonetheless, i love him with all my heart&soul. i don't have a glimpse of chance of leaving this boy, no way. he's my colleague, my best friend, my boyfriend, and lastly, my fiance. thank you for this chance, allah. may this last til the end of time. ♥ ♥

as time pass by, we realise how much we have done, how much we have grown, how much we have learnt, how much we have matured, or how much childish we have been AND how much time truly flies or more to say, zooms. for every experience we go through leads us to the next path in life. the next step, the next journey. a new chapter. a new memory. overall, just move on and be greatful, okay people? (:

i love my family, lover and friends. thank you. together, let's welcome another new year, 2010!

to me, come what may. i believe in an unpredictable future. i don't expect much, just to be happy with the ones i love and care about. ♥

end 2009 with a smile.
start 2010 with a kiss. ♥ muacks!

wish for 2010? same as 2009.
i just want to be happy or maybe, happier. *smiles*
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@11:52 AM

itchy. i need want to buy a new laptop/desktop.
im really itching to start back my photo editing works.
bla~
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@11:30 PM

worried wreck.
im a total worried wreck.
sayangku is very sick.
i wish i am by his side to take care of him.
sometimes i wish i could just do more for him.
be more of a better girlfriend he could ever wish for & ever have.
get well soon, love. really.
i love you.

p/s: i really don't like her, can? pfft. even if she's your friend.
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@10:15 PM

future 2010. i am excited.
2010 is around the corner.
(:

more time.
more loving.
more moments.
more memories.
with love & love ones.

oh, plus we're turning totally legally twentyONE.
woo.

i especially can't wait for end 2010.
hee.
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@12:19 PM

singapore flyers. ica singapore flyers trip with team/sm delta.
and yay, it's my first time.
but apparently,
being on the flyers is not my thing.
heights is simply not my forte.
my head just went round & round.
even until now.
:S

but i did enjoyed my moments at the flyers&popeyes with all.
and then, the even more special moments with love. ((:
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@1:54 AM

... huda.
any idea why i have not been talking to you?
any idea why i am upset with you?
ever thought carefully, what happened before this?
ever thought how you talked to me before this?
confronting me over a rumour&some bad stuffs over your "reputation" that i know nothing about? about your number being passed around. like how the hell i know. bombarding me like a bull. accusing here & there. next thing you said was "sorry i'm busy. i need to get back to work". wtf. seriously. had your say. treat me like some thing to let out your anger that i fucking dont know about. did you know, i was late for work just to listen to you on that day. to think that i thought you would at least apologize for such a treatment. but no la, you're innocent, right? so, next day, happy happy talk about meeting a guy.
pretend like nothing happen.
pretend like normal.
no apologies for the way you treated me.
come & go as you pleased to vent your anger.
you came attacked me with qns. then disappeared.
you think i am happy about that?
you think i have no right to be upset?
oh wait, maybe to you, i don't, who am i afterall.
but you know what,
i strongly think i do have a right to be upset.
and you think its about a bunch of rumours?
please, no time.
and i don't entertain childish rumours.
whatever the rumours are.
should have known better. ohwell.
apparently, i still don't know whats this rumours is all about also.

and damn, i felt damn insulted when you treated me like that.
but to you, hey, i guess you did nothing wrong.

let me be straight like how i always am.
i advised you. like i had always said.
you want, you can take it or leave it.
i told you, your life.
very much, do as you like.
and i have always been fine with it.
cause it's your life.
seriously, i got my own life to handle.
why bother intruding and shaping yours.
you are big and can think for yourself.
i only had advised as a friend.
but, ohwell. you talked as you pleased anyways.
enjoy your life, cause i know you are enjoying living it.
good that your life is interesting.
and that you are enjoying it.
but, get this straight.
don't assume.
"friends don't leave friends." that is childish talk.

i said this before, i am always frank.
if i know you are wrong, i tell you.
you want to accept it or not.
your problem.
i don't lie to make you feel good in life.
i wanted you to feel good just by feeling good, no lies.
but craps & shits happens.
welcome to reality.

respect?
mirror?
insulting?
stab in the back?
hurts?
mm...

differently, i don't define friends the way you do.
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@1:08 AM

bullshit. [edited] simply bullshit.

anw, i suck at Left4Dead. bla~
i ended up so blurr.
until member sayangku get so frust. haha..

tmr flyers. ((:
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@10:56 PM

Motivate me.
all i ask for is your patience and support.
give me the strength and motivation.
to change for the better.
(:
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@5:40 PM

my bad. it may be my fault.
but sometimes, words simply hurts.
and stays in my head.
just emphasize it more than once.
it'd get tattooed in my mind.
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@3:24 PM

Kau. MEREPEK.

fasha - get well soon la. da tk betul. sakit, hyper. tk sakit, tk hyper. haha.
joti - can't wait for sunday! woo. ♥
sayang - i love you. ♥♥
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@12:13 AM

)": sometimes its just so painful.
and it got me very scared.
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@6:10 AM

four months. happy four months, baby.
it may have some major sour moments.
i still love you.
it may hurt me so much by your angered words.
somehow it still does hurt.
i still love you.
i made you angry. i made you upset.
im sorry for my wrong actions/attitude towards you
i love you.
i really do love you.

never a thought of being away from you ever cross my mind.
even when we are arguing.
never the slightest thought of leaving you.
i am staying here with you.
so long as i am here, i am here with you, for you.
i love you.

together, let's not let this honeymoon flavour go away.
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@11:29 AM

Hit with news. yesterday edna passed me some news. sad news.
some members from team c met an accident.
at woodlands junction on the way to work on hari raya.
and two of which is my close members, my close mentors.
total of 3 still in hospital, one badly hurt in icu.
another, my close mentor, nad, badly injured, barely able to move.
shaz, my another mentor, managed to be released.
but with 3 cuts near her eyes & swollen legs and all.
some of which needed to go through a 6 mths physio therapy.
it's really sad to hear this.
i jus met nad a few days back at work.
and next, i received such a sad news.
)':

may you all be safe and get well soon.
insya allah. amin.
take care, my friends.
Pretty much blissful & happy. ♥
@1:36 PM